

But Feldman looked to storybook characters like Roald Dahl's Matildafor hope. As a young girl, she found moments of freedom while reading books written in English-a rebellious act as only Yiddish books were allowed in her community.

Her talent and interest in learning made her stand out. Though her community required her to be "just" a wife and mother, Feldman aspired to something else. Although I mumble the words of the Yom Kippur prayers along with everyone else, I don’t think about what they mean, and I certainly don't want to ask for mercy. Defying the expectations put up on her, she writes: I want to be such a woman, who works her own miracles instead of waiting for God to perform them. She struggled to accept her community's idea that a woman's purpose is to serve men. Thus, Feldman suffered a lonely childhood, weighed down by repressive social norms and religious teachings.

